As I sit and self reflect, I think about all the unnecessary tangibles I continued to succumb myself to. Constantly convinced that I had to deal with certain individuals and situations because of the years put in. As I continued to try and fill the people and situations around me, I was unaware that I was leaving myself empty and lifeless. It was like holding onto a rope that was tightly wrapped around my hand, burning into the flesh of my palm. It was doing way more damage to hold on, but for the life of me I could not process in my mind to let the rope go. Eventually I chose myself and my peace of mind. I was always the one playing “fixer upper.” Whether it was relationships, friendships, other peoples friendships….I was always throwing on my cape. It’s exhausting, unfulfilling and after while you get tired of putting so much energy into things and it not be reciprocated. I had to stop embracing negativity, I had to stop expecting individuals to change and most importantly I had to stop compromising myself. Ones happiness is intrinsically important and we should never neglect to cultivate it. We’ve got to stop watering dead plants. Let go.
“Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go.”
-Hermann Hesse